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You.

Posted on August 22, 2018 by giannafanelli

I want to stare at the moon with you for hours,

I want to kiss you as the sun rises every day,

I want to wake up and smell the flowers,

With you next to me as I lay,

I want to grow old with you and tell our stories to those who will listen,

I want to stare into those eyes and say “i do” while they glisten,

I want to hug you long and hard every time I need a reminder,

That you are here for me in this cold world that I’ve gone blind to,

I want to be next to you as I take my last breath,

Because you are my world, my everything that I have left,

I want you to know I’ve never known love before,

Then I met you and now nothing I knew makes sense anymore ❤️

You Taught Me

Posted on July 29, 2017 by giannafanelli

You taught me to walk,

You taught me to read,

You taught me how to love
and how to lead..

You taught me to slow down and take a breath,

You taught me that nothing will separate us.. even death.

You taught me how to stand up when life knocks you down,

You taught me that “my smile is too pretty to frown”

You taught me wrong from right,

You taught me never raise your hands first in a fight,

You taught me that life isn’t always going to be fair,

You taught me it’s okay to show people you care,

You taught me everything dad, except how to live without you..

Today I sat in the exact spot where my father died. And to some this may sound strange.. I’ve never felt so at peace.
The same spot where he pulled that trigger and ended his life, Is where he gave me a new start to mine.

I touch the blood stained spots on the wood floor and I feel him. That’s my dad.

I hear him saying to me, “I shed that so you can shine my little girl. Make me proud”

And I will dad. I will shine for you everyday that you make the sun shine on me.

Even on the rainiest days I will turn those rain drops into rays of light and continue to fight. For you.

Heart Break Blvd

Posted on July 10, 2016 by giannafanelli

Here I am again on this dead end road

But this time it’s different, I can feel my heart beat being slowed.

It hurts to breath.. I can’t seem to catch my own breath..

It feels like something is taking over me, I feel close to death.

This road is familiar to me, I’ve walked it before

But this time I feel my happiness is not something I can restore.

You gave me purpose. You made my days bright

Now all I can see every minute is darkness and midnight.

I don’t know if I’ll ever forget you but please remember this

Remember the feeling you felt when we shared our first kiss.

That moment electrified my soul and made me feel something I can’t put into words

Now I can’t even see clearly. Everything is blurred.

If you are looking for me I’ll be here on Heart Break Blvd searching for any sign of you

I hope one day you’ll come looking and ask to start over new.

Floor Cockroach

Posted on June 21, 2016 by giannafanelli

I guess it’s just me and you little guy
laying here with our heads cut off but we’re still walking around

wondering why?

My brain is gone.

it’s some where over there

but my feet are still walking and moving

they don’t seem to care.

Bumping into walls, going in circles

man.. What word rhymes with circles?

I can’t think like that anymore.

I’m just a floor cockroach.

stepped on and forgotten..

does anybody care about us anymore?

or did your hearts all go rotten?

I think I’ll end my metaphor with one final food for thought phrase..

we are all headless floor cockroaches just trying to get out of this maze.